Hello it's me

Hello my loyal readers….reader? Mom? Anyone? Is this thing on?

whatever.

I’m trying to start the new decade with a New Positive Energy. I’ve been mustering up the dreams that have been pushed down into the basement of my brain by anxiety, laziness, boredom, fear. I know they’re in there. I used to be bright and shiny and optimistic. I had goals and dreams and ideas I didn’t immediately label as not funny/not cool/not good and send them packing. Seriously. Life has a way of beating that shit down in favor of fear or, worse, status quo. When your mind is full of the “what am I gonna do about money?” and “why isn’t this shit going my way?” and “screw it, it’s fine” it’s super easy to ditch Susie Sunshine in favor of Debbie Downer (or in this case, Lazy Laura).

While I still have all the “what about…?” nagging scary questions, I am going to find that goddamn Susie Sunshine and put her to work shutting them out and getting some positivity up in here. Who’s with me?

(by the way, the photo of the flowers doesn’t mean anything specific. I just couldn’t think of anything better to post with this. It’s pretty tho right?)